suddenly, the veil lifts...

i was expecting to be working at chase for another week almost, but today they pulled all of the temps into a conference room and told them the assignment was over. 40 were going to be kept on for a while longer, of those 40 ten were going to be hired permanently and then the remaining 20 were let go as of today. i was one of the 20. so i now, all of a sudden and completely unexpectedly, have two full days off. it's kind of a bummer because now i won't be able to keep as much of the money from beans and bagels to put towards the cd as i had wanted to, but i was already planning on selling the digital piano to pay for the remaining cost of the cd, but it would also help me pay for my half of the taxes that we owe this year. so, it's over all of a sudden. i'm not sure what to do with myself now- it's been almost six months since i started there. i all of a sudden have my nights back again. i'm looking forward to getting some work done tomorrow- i've been itching to record some new songs. i have boatloads of them as many of you who read this know. i can also start mixing down the finished 'down to sleep' tracks. shit, i have a fucking list of things i need to fix on the record too and i can start to check those off now. so excitering... oh yeah, i can start to plan our proposed tour sooner than expected as well. woohoo!
when i was in the room with everyone else who was let go the atmosphere in there was real grim. i felt much like that character in that kate chopin story where the woman is told that her husband has died and after her initial feelings of grief she realises that she's finally free and it makes her so happy that she dies of joy. i wanted to smile and jump up and down, but not everyone was feeling that way at all. most people didn't have another job lined up, yet. so now it's over and i get to get back to leading a normal(ish) life. i'm planning on looking into playing music at potbelly's. if that brings in a tiny bit more money then my paychecks could pay my rent and my bills and my tips can be savings/beer/fun money. even better i was worried about whether or not i was going to be able to make it to see shannon wright on friday night and now i don't have to worry! i'm very excited- her new record is so fantastic and the show is at schuba's. welcome back to life.