drowning in nostalgia

i'm having one of those periods in my life where i'm constantly nostalgic and wistful. it can get pretty ugly in this internet age- when i lived in kansas city i'd just get in my car and go for a two hour drive blasting jesus and mary chain and my bloody valentine records or do a cure marathon and pass the houses of a few old girlfriends and then head out onto the desolate and hilly part of johnson drive (which i'm pretty sure gives way to a completely different town). now there are facebook wormholes to get lost in, youtube videos to watch and then, of course, this little journal substitute i've got going here. there are times where i get stuck in one of these wormholes and suddenly three hours have gone by... at least the gas is cheap, i suppose.
this could be the result of doing one of those 'memes' that the kids used to do all the time. i did the 30 days of music one and just finished and as cheesy as i thought doing such a thing was it actually did get me thinking about music that i hadn't listened to or thought about in eons. it kicked off another major cure kick, that's for sure. i ended up adding a lot of stuff onto my new-ish ipod that i'd forgotten about.
another explanation could be the lack of new songs to work on. i did just have the string players over to record some 'new' stuff (most of which was begun in 2007) which turned out very nicely. it's mostly 'chinese blue' stuff- it sounds very vibrant, clean and lush. there are mistakes, but it somehow manages to sound more confident than some of our older stuff. i've also nearly finished three instrumentals for possible upload as stock film score music. so far i've been able to stay in the habit of sitting down in the music room and coming up with new stuff. it's fairly rare when i can sit down in there, pick up the guitar and not come up with something new to work on. this whole stock film scoring thing is perfect for that too- i'm trying not to limit myself in terms of what i think that people would want, so it's really fun and liberating because i also don't have to flesh them out into songs. i'm also enjoying not having to worry about writing or recording new shalloboi songs.
that said i have started a new shalloboi song that's actually jangly. blame wild nothing and my repeated listening of their album 'gemini.'
financially speaking i've started implementing my plan to get my monetary messes back into order. i got a new checking account at pnc since chase is getting rid of their free checking accounts and i also got a new credit card to do the whole balance transfer malarkey properly. since we aren't really planning on going out of town too much this year, we're going to try to get a show booked in kansas city over the weekend before my birthday. we've made a rental car reservation (which are beautiful, malleable things) which actually will end up costing about the same as taking the train home. i might try and book a round of shows in new york and possibly in philadelphia in the summertime. i'm not so sure that it would be possible to do much more than that... going to new york is really really reaching in and of itself, but i suppose i'll see how things are looking in the spring and how much it'll cost. katelyn will be leaving soon and this would be our only chance to do something like this with everyone involved. merilee will be leaving soon as well and i'm not entirely sure what will become of this particular format for the band- do i want to try and replace two people, one of whom is my best player?
i suppose this is a pretty good indication of why i'm so wistful and nostalgic at this point in time- this year is kind of a crossroads.